__________hurt

i love [you] so deeply, yet all i get in return is nothing but silence and empty stares. sometimes, i wish i nvr told [you].. but then again, [you] would have found out sooner or ltrr. honestly, i dont expect [you] to feel the same way.. but silence?? )= seeing the one u love everyday, but all you can do is jus to look, talk abt, and think abt.. like wat laoshi said todae.. if u love someone, but that person doesnt like you, it's painful.. that's so cruel. then again, this world is a cruel one. pple jus tell you all their probs. but when u need a listening ear, they jus "siam".. i dont noe who to tell wat i want to say.. nobody can/will understand. i have no one to turn to, thus keeping everything to myself. and when i cry, emotions are involved, but usually, it's jus to vent a little frustrations. im NOT being too emotional. when u love someone, u want to be with him/her. but wat if u find out that he/she is leaving, and u wont get to see him/her anymore? my world has come crashing down.. reality hurts. my lovely dreams have all been shattered; pierced beyond repair. heartbroken. just when i have started to feel for [you], [you] have to leave. sometimes, i question myself. why am i always at the right place, at the wrong time? always. jus one year, or even 364 days, might have made THAT difference.
right now, wat is done, is done. time wont ever turn back. the only thing i can do now is that, in watever i do, i try my very best, and not disappoint [you] in any, and every way. i reallie try, hoping to see at least a hint of a smile on ur face. a grin would be elatifying. i want [you] to be happy. i would do anything to make [you] happy, even if it were beyond my means, or against my wishes. i'd give everything. [you] have made a difference in my life. [you] might not noe this, but [you] have made a huge impact on me, and left countless footprints in my heart.. memories that will nvr be erased, forever. this is for [you], becos i love [you].

no matter how hard they try, no matter wat they do. there's no one in the world, i love as much as [you]..